Dark Matter

EXPERIMENT 

Footfalls echo in the memory down the passage which we did not take towards the door we never opened ~ T.S.Eliot

Alternate realities exist partially as the options we do or do not take. Resentment can start to build from the absence of those choices or the lack of choices you thought weren't available to you at the time due to state of mind or other circumstances. The acronym of fear itself is what stops many of us from taking the steps which we would really like to take. For if you do labels such as selfish and inconsiderate keep you stuck. Peoples opinions have us in chokeholds that we don't really like to admit. The longer you live in fear the more resentment you live with. Thus being stuck in a cycle of emotions, followed by outcomes which seem impossible to break due to how your brain is set up. 

'Taking time to emotionally regulate ourselves is a calculated investment in both of us continuing to live'

This world is becoming more draining to deal with. Getting what you want when your nervous system is cooked will only take longer for you to tap into the clarity for you to feel your way through life. Success comes from following your intuition. I struggled with that word because I had to get through so much of other people’s opinions that I carried for years thinking that because it made sense or that it was logical or what worked for them, it must work for others.

JUST BECAUSE IT MAKES SENSE DOES NOT MEAN IT’S MEANT FOR YOU - strings

Whereas being still and having conversations with myself  extreme lengths at a time. I began listening to myself that encouraged me to take chances, thrive and take up space. Through that process I started to yield results due to trusting myself which led to the confidence through the awkward nature of putting my true self first. Not society’s expectations but my own. 

Your nervous system is your body's intellectual highway which constantly sends signals from the mind including your subconscious. Studies and texts claim is responsible for the reality that you perceive. Have you ever noticed that deep tiredness you feel that is only temporarily fixed from a holiday or when you cant shake that feeling for a need for change in your or when you're depressed but still functional. This comes from of years of your body keeping it self it a state of fight or flight and cope having to 'live' with anxiety. 

I mention in my previous post Hitman that your way of thinking and the muscle memory of fear and exhaustion freeze you and struggle to find the energy for you to enter the flow state to do what you want and need to do. This explains the need for a new high  to to jumpstart ourselves. that is another subject in itself but the short version for now is that discipline creates the environment to welcome fresh energy to capitalise it.

- Why do people marry versions of their controlling mothers or absent fathers? To have a shot at fixing things as an adult that hurt them as a child. Maybe it doesn't make sense at a surface level but the subconscious marches to its own beat - 

This went viral amongst viewers. I was on a sci-fi rollercoaster and this scene sent me off the rails. People are so used to chaos and disorder in their lives that it becomes natural order. Naturally people gravitate to people that they create these realities with. I used to find it so interesting when people would describe other people as boring because of the lack of dysfunction they have in their lives. 

Your boring lifestyle kept you safe from a lot of destruction - unknown

Now for those who may be pumping their fists in the air, this applies to how and who you repeatedly choose to keep in your life despite what you think is a boring lifestyle. As long as you entertain people that bring abnormality in your life. Your path way will feel stagnant because they are blocking access to yourself. Hence statements such as 'I find it difficult being on my own' or 'I can't sit still for too long'. 

Think back to a time you cut ties with someone and after a period you start to feel lighter and you receive good news and small blessings start to happen. That is a result of your energy being unblocked and undisrupted. The following emotion to a wrong doing is cutting people off completely but when that feeling dissipates its back to either the same crowd or a path of mistrust and manipulation. Unfortunately it stems back to your own subconscious just trying to replicate scenarios with others where we feel safe or what we need to fix.

In other arcane instances people may tend to feel more intertwined in peoples lives. 'I feel like I've known you my whole life' the pull to each other is the same as two magnets. Only life tends to cut these cords and both parties leave the situation with a different insight into themselves that were only meant to be taught by each other.

Eventually you'll come to realise that when people cant let go of that 'toxic' relationship or constantly complaining about their current situations. They genuinely feel safe in that environment and the twists and turns of events give them the energy coexist with their circumstances. For some who try to leave, it takes everything to leave and when they do it takes everything not to go back due to the sense of 'abandonment'. With no immediate relief to the new sense of reality they have put themselves into. That void is their chance to rebuild themselves from the experience they have gone through. 

'If consciousness makes our connection to reality then it’s not only the consciousness of the person who opens the doors that matters'

We all have the ability to gain access to the reality we desire. Some do it effortlessly and with intention and others struggle to make strides. We have different tools and ways of life that help us achieve those outcomes. It just takes a while to realise what habits and mental traps we need to avoid to make them happen.

 'I used to think that life was about reaching some perfect destination'

There is no destination which in itself makes like a conundrum. Peace of mind is sold separately when on the road to your dreams which is why reflection is becoming a lost art. Everything will remind you of your worth until you are ready to take the first step and not look back. Your environment will spit you out and when you notice that the sooner you realise you will do what it is in your power to attract a different perception to fulfil the next step of your journey. 

All I'm saying is that this series [Dark Matter] showed someone like me the inner workings of the mind and the power it takes to change your life in an instant as long as you acknowledge and follow the bread crumbs. 

'If you get to my age in life and nobody thinks well of you I don't care how big your bank account is your life is a disaster' - Warren Buffett